Commissions are CLOSED
EDIT: Slots are full! Stay tuned for future openings ^^
It's been a year, but I can finally say I'm almost totally out of the slump. Time to get to work, so I'm opening commissions (hoping there's still someone interested in them lol). This time I'll use slots, no reason to write a long list where people will have to wait forever... (if you're one of them: I'm so freaking sorry that I don't have words to say how much 😰).
So...
Commissions are OPEN!
Take a look to the up-to-date Commission Sheet (all the other infos are in the sheet's comment section)
5 slots to begin, FCFS - (unless you're on this list : if you are, don't mind about the slots, I'll take your commission regardless because you've waited way too long)
- baby-gwing ✔
- Meme-Ryuu-OC ✔
- Honoka--chan ✔
- mokiiro ✔
- sharpieteal ✔
- leiluy
fullbody sketch x5 - 5 of 5 ![[Half] Rating Star](https://images-wixmp-ed30a86b8c4ca887773594c2.wixmp.com/f/057aaa6f-e387-47eb-9792-86c923dcadd1/d6yummd-41d4e104-7f4c-4720-948e-8288fe58dbd9.png?token=eyJ0eXAiOiJKV1QiLCJhbGciOiJIUzI1NiJ9.eyJzdWIiOiJ1cm46YXBwOjdlMGQxODg5ODIyNjQzNzNhNWYwZDQxNWVhMGQyNmUwIiwiaXNzIjoidXJuOmFwcDo3ZTBkMTg4OTgyMjY0MzczYTVmMGQ0MTVlYTBkMjZlMCIsIm9iaiI6W1t7InBhdGgiOiJcL2ZcLzA1N2FhYTZmLWUzODctNDdlYi05NzkyLTg2YzkyM2RjYWRkMVwvZDZ5dW1tZC00MWQ0ZTEwNC03ZjRjLTQ3MjAtOTQ4ZS04Mjg4ZmU1OGRiZDkucG5nIn1dXSwiYXVkIjpbInVybjpzZXJ2aWNlOmZpbGUuZG93bmxvYWQiXX0.KIysA0dBimvE3Cz2erUp53WrSyHotDwTjd74paFtwQk){kind=small}
- hanaiiro
![[Empty] Rating Star](https://images-wixmp-ed30a86b8c4ca887773594c2.wixmp.com/f/057aaa6f-e387-47eb-9792-86c923dcadd1/d6yums7-bb14e157-d7c8-4298-8618-8056af38c8c1.png?token=eyJ0eXAiOiJKV1QiLCJhbGciOiJIUzI1NiJ9.eyJzdWIiOiJ1cm46YXBwOjdlMGQxODg5ODIyNjQzNzNhNWYwZDQxNWVhMGQyNmUwIiwiaXNzIjoidXJuOmFwcDo3ZTBkMTg4OTgyMjY0MzczYTVmMGQ0MTVlYTBkMjZlMCIsIm9iaiI6W1t7InBhdGgiOiJcL2ZcLzA1N2FhYTZmLWUzODctNDdlYi05NzkyLTg2YzkyM2RjYWRkMVwvZDZ5dW1zNy1iYjE0ZTE1Ny1kN2M4LTQyOTgtODYxOC04MDU2YWYzOGM4YzEucG5nIn1dXSwiYXVkIjpbInVybjpzZXJ2aWNlOmZpbGUuZG93bmxvYWQiXX0.CKEBFSDK7VJVsxoThRN1P_HljtavT2nwAi06EbYTgEU){kind=small}
= collecting material(references)/sketch in progress
= sketch done
= lineart/basic color in progress
= basic color done
= shading
⭐⭐⭐ = DONE!
Creative burnout
Oh if the f*cking universe would just let me draw.
I was feeling off lately, and with lately I mean at least the last two months; drawing was hard, and it didn't bring me anything: no satisfaction, no joy, nothing. I somehow managed to get through Art Fight, but the feeling was always there, always present. It will get better, I was saying to myself, you just need to push through, draw different things, draw something YOU want to draw -- nothing. And I TRIED.
Earlier this week, I broke down. Just the thought of sitting in front of my graphic tablet made me wanna puke (literally). The motivation is completely gone, I wonder how could I enjoy this so much. I've looked around the internet, and apparently this burnout thing is the real shit. I miss the good old artblock, at least it can be overcomed quite easily. Anyway, apparently the cure is to step back for a while, do something else, give the "dried-up well time to replenish itself" (or any fancy analogy the blogs about burnout come up with). But what else can I do when drawing is the only thing I have?
Fortunately(?), years of therapy taught me how to analyze negative feelings, and it's a little better now? Can't draw still, but at least the persistent ball of anxiety in my stomach is gone. I picked up crochet, I can do crocheted balls now. I tried Blender again, following some simple tutorials. I'm thinking of try some drawing tutorials next week, like I've never drawn and it's the first time I'm doing it. I wonder if it'll work...
(I'm not a big creator, so who cares about all this, right? I'm a small fish in a pond full of other small fishes after all. I don't even post much. The only ones affected marginally by this are the good souls that are waiting to commission me, and to those I am deeply sorry. It's not my fault, not your fault, anyone's fault, but it happened and it hurts)
Anyone, been there? Overcomed it? Any tips? Suggestions? Links to wholesome articles that deal with it? I'm open to anything, I can't fall lower than here.
New Year Resolutions are dumb
...and I always ignored them.
YET.
Here I am, doing one. I miss being here. It's not like I'm more active somewhere else, nor I have stopped drawing (*eyes the complete work that is sitting on the desktop like that monkey in that meme*)... I just tire mentally so easily! D:<
So, here's what I'll do. (Doubt there's anyone out there who cares, I'm doing this mainly for myself, to get back in the loop).
I'm going to erase all the notifications to kinda-start anew (and I apologise in advance if you wrote me something, your next message/s will not be ignored. Be assured the guilt will stand in my worrying brain for a long time),
fix the commission waiting list (there's people in there that is waiting since forever, I just have to check who is still around :'| ),
and I'll try to post at least once a week (even if it's just a sketch I'll end up delete some time later).
So, here. Let's see how long I will endure :'3
Please apologize the couple-of-days-older me for the stupid thing she wrote, if there are.Hi, how's going in the current worldwide plague scenario?
(I'm fine btw)Anyway, my trusty laptop is approaching its 10th year (already! and it's newer than my graphic tablet!! D: ) so it's time to give it a well-earned retirement (also, some keys on the keyboard are starting to need a vigorous push to work - when they work -, and idk how long will they endure that...) - and here comes my need for help: I know jack sh*t about hardware - like nothing at all - so do you have maybe some advices to give me?
What I'm looking for:
- I need it for drawing (important), 3D modeling (expecially painting models, I can work with meshes just fine - almost - with my potato-pc - not really important, I can live without this, but it would be a nice thing being able to do so) and videogaming (don't mind using the lowest graphic options available, I don't care to see every single pore of the character's face skin - I don't really care even about detailed shadows, reflections, etc. - I really just want to be able to play *looks at Vampyr that's catching dust in the Steam library longingly* )(also, I guess my currently videogaming limitations are mainly due to the OS - Windows 7 SP still I just never update anything - I know it's no good, don't lecture me =3= I still have a desktop pc that runs Windows XP and has a monitor thick like a fridge lol);
- All-in-one pc (I have no space
) - Windows ('cause all my stuff is Windows friendly, also iMac is too expensive)
- About that, mid-priced (I was able to save some money thanks to the internship, since I use money just for refuel the car basically and manga, but it's an internship so it's not even near to an actual salary. At the same time, I don't want a cardboard box that breaks after a couple years).
So, have you some advice? I don't want you to waste time on this not more than having read al this wall-like text rambling, that is lol, just, if you have a computer with whom you can do what I listed up here, tell me, I don't know, the brand...? The graphic card...? What do I need to know?! I don't know sh*******tttttt---
Really, I'm completely lost. Help. ;_;
At least I have time for this, it's not like I can go shopping for a computer atm, because you know, lockdown
About the waiting list [EDIT]
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Real quick announcement, I have a pot on the stove: I've meant to do this since the beginning, then time passed somehow...? So:
I'm going to make the waiting list public, so if you're in it if you remember to be in, I mean... *dries cold sweat* and don't want to appear in all your nickname glory, let me know and I'll remove you. (Don't see why, but I have to take in consideration every scenario...)
And huh, don't worry, rules won't change - you'll still be able to give up on the commission if you changed idea, or be moved down the list if you can't commission me when it's your turn for any reason, etc. (here is the journal about if you need to take a look:Introducing... the Waiting List)
As I said, I've meant to do that since the beginning - I was planning to keep it private for a little, to see how the thing was going, then it passed a bunch of time, and I didn't even realize that! D: Seriously, I don't know what was I thinking... ;o_o
okay, I'll pass later to check the notifications, bye OuO/